Sunday, July 26, 2009
I need to start this post by simply saying this...
I love these two little girls more than words can possibly express.
I may have my moments where I sincerely believe parenting is not all that it is cracked up to be (some weeks produce more moments than others) but that does not negate the fact that I love these little girls and there is nothing that I won't do for them.
We had a somewhat stressful week at our house and that is why I feel like I've been a bit out of touch. Despite having Dave gone at the beginning of last week, I worked way more hours than I normally do. In fact, when I told Mattea that our babysitter Julie would be coming over for a couple of hours on Thursday to help us out until Dave got home from work, her reply was "were having a lot of Julie time and not a lot of mommy and daddy time." That one hit pretty hard. But I guess kids don't lie - and she's true. We didn't have a lot of family time.
Dave arrived safely home on Tuesday night from the second week in a row of traveling. Then we were off as a family early Wednesday morning to have a CT scan done on Mattea to rule out a brain tumor/aneurysm. After having a couple bizarre headache/eye pain episodes Mattea was taken to a pediatrician who consulted with our pediatric neurologist and believed it would be in our best interest to rule out "all the bad stuff." Not really having a whole lot of time to really comprehend, I was in complete denial up until Tuesday night when it finally dawned on me that our lives could be changed in less than 24 hours.
We are very happy to report that Mattea is neurologically intact. CT scan was normal and we will be continuing to monitor her headaches. With that very scary test behind us, Dave and I took the rest of the week to fully enjoy and appreciate every single minute with our children. They are such a blessing and I guess this little incident simply reminds us that our earthly time is limited and only our Maker knows when our time here is through. We have been so blessed and can't thank God enough for all He has done for us.
Finishing out last week with work was absolutely no fun. It has been crazy on the floor. Some very sick, sad, and complicated kids have been among us. I am finding that as my kids get older I am having a harder time with work. I am sure I will learn to suppress my feelings from work when I arrive home but it is hard not to look into the eyes of a dying toddler or a sick baby and not think of your own children.
With that, I'll end this rambly post with simply a thank you for prayers lifted up on Mattea's behalf. We are grateful for the wonderful news and hopeful these headaches will pass. We appreciate your concern. Have a fantastic week - I know I will be. Nothing but fun and relaxation on the agenda AND a camping trip next weekend. Y'all know I'm not quite the camping kind of girl but Dave emailed me the reservation. I will be sure to keep you posted.